Got alone time for the first time in a long time And the Son shines with a soft rhyme So the other day I got high from a pecan with a salad, not a pie Looked at it twice when I took the bite Placebo would launch but opposed to my thoughts Felt like a trip in the strawberry sauce Felt like my wish to be gone wasn't lost
I wouldn't miss this chance for a pause Yes, I was itching to dance with the gods And yes I would learn they reflect on my parts Yes I'm a version of me for the season No, I'm not opposed to healing But guilt is candy, fear is so scenic I don't mean that (I need to say it though) Bless my messy soul (such a messy soul)
But that's just how it goes And that's just me reaching for control Deliberating on cynicism and faith I'm choosing many delivery mechanisms of pain Like short-term, long-term, extended release Then rapid succession of needles under my feet I still be flirting with demons like I would think it'd be sweet Got many versions of evil but one definitive beast (one beast)
Check my expression I phase out my frowns with questions I drown out my lies with sections of Truth The best I can do is best I can do With nothing to prove we come to a truce The parts ain't apart no longer in the dark The lamp is turned on The flame will burn strong I sing His song and answer His call
Sing His song just like the Course taught Tune my prism to my true boss Release my schism, I am no victim I'll receive wisdom if I keep calm Surrender my grip, surrender my shame Give you my mis-made shit to be saved If you need this I'll send it your way Share right here with my real .. face
Just give me some space Give me a little space Just give me some space
Speaking in paradox, I feel crazy Speaking of paradox, where's my baby? Along for the ride living like I'm inside Hanging on your word's giving me inner light
Still get scared of the bark and the bite Maybe this fear is provoking the fight Maybe my peers are as frozen as I — am Damn, it get cold in the night Now I'm really starting to believe you're right No more running from corrected sight No more turning my shoulder pushing that boulder without His smile on my face while I write Chase no dream just see how it is and welcome the vision in with a grin This is the life you chose, my friend
What's a yes or no? Does it really matter if It was all the same game? All the same in the end?
All the same All the same All the same All the same They was never any change anyway
But I still play And I still think And I still see myself inside a body Separated as a wave Separated from your strength Separated saying there was never any change anyway