The depths of fear, shame, and guilt. It can feel like uncovering realization, but it's not. It's just misunderstanding of the light inherent to our existence. The song was written by Jackintheway and produced by Fabrizio and Jake Vicious.
I still think about the early nights I still think about me wide awake They said fear is a false alarm But they don’t know what I’ve done today
And I’m still scared of the quiet nights I’m still scared to be stuck in place Told em I would be fine for now But they don’t know
What have I done? Do I believe this is me? Oh what have I done? Just tell me where is the peace Oh what have I done? There’s something you need to see So what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done?
What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done?
A young soul saw his life today He came close but he walked away Avoid plans cuz they’re all the same He got friends so if he alone he’s to blame Talks about himself but not to himself He does not wanna face what he’s done With only feeling to guide him He’s digging further inside of it Wondering if he can make it back home
Then he told me “I don’t wanna have to feel the pain.” “I don’t wanna have to tell em why I’m not okay.” “I don’t wanna be the reason that we can’t complain.” “I’m supposed to be the one to push against the wave” But in that moment I saw that I’m in a prison I am talking to myself I’m afraid to be written Terrified I grab ahold of any kind of escape But I’m alone, staring at the page
What have I done? Do I believe this is me? Oh what have I done? Just tell me where is the peace Oh what have I done? There’s something you need to see So what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done?
What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done?
I’m starting to see where I’m putting my energy Now I can feel when I’m searching for remedies I got avoidance and I got the weight It doesn’t get lighter if I walk away How can I know that it will be okay? Why’s it that certainty is all that I chase? I’m sinking in quicker the more that I struggle I’m shoving myself into shade
Now seeing the difference before me is strange I notice the picture is different today It’s an alternate message of personal history A new one that’s finally listening But what of the thoughts and the feelings? What of experience that we have been missing? What of the years of me seeing myself As the guilty but never forgiven?
What have I done? Do I believe this is me? Oh what have I done? Just tell me where is the peace Oh what have I done? There’s something you need to see So what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done?
What have I done? Do I believe this is me? Oh what have I done? Just tell me where is the peace Oh what have I done? There’s something you need to see So what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done?
What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done? What have I done? Oh what have I done?